She Was Looking For Me

my mom was looking for me

my room is upstairs.

her nurse, my friend, called me and told me that my mom was calling my name and that she wanted to watch a movie at the mall.

i went to her room and reminded my mom that the malls cinema was still under construction due to the fire which burned it down.

"ay ganun ba?" she said. i then told her that i would just rent a movie.

my papa was leaving. my mom asked for him to buy "sotanghon" for her at the Midtown restaurant. it was funny because before i left her room she told me to buy "canton" hehe

we asked her again.. her choice was "sotanghon"

we didn't get to rent the movies because there was already a box of cd's lent to us by a friend. so we picked the funny ones so we wouldn't be depressed.

my mom didn't want me to leave. i rested my head on her arm while she was lying in bed and she said "ang bigat mo". my friend and i both laughed. my mom also said "labas ka naman ng labas"  i told her that i was the one who was going to buy the "sotanghon".

i went out to run for the food and to finish my meeting with my friend regarding the "chicharon" that i was selling.

when i got home, my friend told me that my mom looked for me again... she was asking where i was... she again repeated that i bought the "sotanghon"...

we had lunch together at her room.

my mom was seated at the rocking chair and i watched her as she ate.

she couldn't eat the food right. the noodles were slipping from her lips and fell on the napkin turned bib.. her tongue couldn't lick it off anymore.

seeing her.... it again hurt.

never did i comprehend that what i saw when my grandmother was already old was already happening to my mom.

the strong woman who took care of me was slowly slipping away...

i went out again to finish my business meeting.

my friend texted me and said that "your mom is looking for you"...

you know what? it hurt

my mom is the only person who looks for me when i'm not at home or when it's already late...

she always texts me for me to come home...

but now somebody else texted me her message... the one she texts me all the time..

"its time for you to come home"

she was again looking for me....

i will truly miss this...