"is he listening?":
"is he real?"
questions that i asked repeatedly before. all of which was answered last year on October 25,2010.
it was Election Day. No work. Just a typical day that you prefer to stay at home after voting. Everything was the usual.
But on that day we went out for dinner to treat my cousin. The dinner was supposed to be the previous day but it was postponed for some unknown reason. Usually my mom prefers to stay at home instead of go out for this kind of things or we leave my daughter at home because its a night out for adults. But another thing happened, my mom came with us and on that night we "ALMOST" left my daughter but we didn't.
After the dinner we went home to find a lot of people at the front of the gate of our house. They were looking inside shouting for someone to open the gate. they were holding rocks tapping the gates.
when my "manong" opened the gate it was then they found our household helps "marian's" body lying on the floor in front of our car. she was only 17 years old. stabbed 33 times by an unknown person (who was already identified later on but is still at large).
the media and crowd gathered both inside and outside of our house. a lot of people were there out of curiosity and to help as well. they heard marian's screams for help. that was why they rushed to her aid but it was still too late.
the fear we felt...it consumed us.
tears automatically fell from my eyes. i kept looking at the crowd and i felt like one of them will kill me and my family. that fear! it was so strong that it felt like it was tangible enough for me to touch...
my family was saved but unfortunately someone else still died.
it will be a year now on October. justice for marian's death is truly my family's goal.... the killer is still at large.... it could have been one of us that was in her place... marian deserves to rest in peace and to achieve that, justice and prayers are needed.
i still feel that fear until now. you cant help but look back your shoulder. the trauma it caused will haunt me but because of God and my faith in him i will be able to bear it and eventually overcome it. my family is undergoing this process... overcoming the fear and trauma.
God was there. i know it. the sequence of events wouldn't have been that if he wasn't there. he saved us.
The answer to all my question was answered. God is everywhere. He is with us in times that you least expect it. In times that you didn't know that you needed him.
This is what happened to me and my family. I learned that it is FAITH in God that truly makes a person capable of handling everything in their life. He is the one that made my family united and able to cope with such a trauma.
I didn't have faith in him before but after everything that has happened and is still happening now in my life I know that he is with me, guiding me... leading me to the right path... that's why i can say that God saved us.
He is always here with us.
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