Adrenaline Rush

As we were having lunch, my mom choked!!

the feeling of seeing her choke and not knowing what to do plus the fact that my phone wasn't working! i couldn't contact anyone for help!

OMG!! truly an OMG moment...

selda and i jumped from our seats when we saw that it wasn't just an ordinary choking moment (huh?)

my mom turned red and she couldnt breathe!!

we kept tapping her back but it wouldn't work... it was time for the Heimlich maneuver but selda didn't know how to do it...but she knew the process so she tried...

a whole tablet of my moms medicine came out from her mouth... but she still couldn't breathe...

she tried to speak and the only thing we could hear was "susuka ako"...

we rushed her to the comfort room and selda continued the heimlich maneuver while i was holding my moms hand

she gripped my hand because she was scared... i was also truly scared...

another tablet came out and phlegm...

and then she was okay...

we rushed her to the bed so she can take oxygen from the tank...

and then selda and i just stood for a few seconds then it hit us...

we were in shock from what had transpired...

it was so hot and we sweated...

it was the after effect of the adrenaline rush

we truly got scared!! but thank God it was fixed before it turned ugly...

She Was Looking For Me

my mom was looking for me

my room is upstairs.

her nurse, my friend, called me and told me that my mom was calling my name and that she wanted to watch a movie at the mall.

i went to her room and reminded my mom that the malls cinema was still under construction due to the fire which burned it down.

"ay ganun ba?" she said. i then told her that i would just rent a movie.

my papa was leaving. my mom asked for him to buy "sotanghon" for her at the Midtown restaurant. it was funny because before i left her room she told me to buy "canton" hehe

we asked her again.. her choice was "sotanghon"

we didn't get to rent the movies because there was already a box of cd's lent to us by a friend. so we picked the funny ones so we wouldn't be depressed.

my mom didn't want me to leave. i rested my head on her arm while she was lying in bed and she said "ang bigat mo". my friend and i both laughed. my mom also said "labas ka naman ng labas"  i told her that i was the one who was going to buy the "sotanghon".

i went out to run for the food and to finish my meeting with my friend regarding the "chicharon" that i was selling.

when i got home, my friend told me that my mom looked for me again... she was asking where i was... she again repeated that i bought the "sotanghon"...

we had lunch together at her room.

my mom was seated at the rocking chair and i watched her as she ate.

she couldn't eat the food right. the noodles were slipping from her lips and fell on the napkin turned bib.. her tongue couldn't lick it off anymore.

seeing her.... it again hurt.

never did i comprehend that what i saw when my grandmother was already old was already happening to my mom.

the strong woman who took care of me was slowly slipping away...

i went out again to finish my business meeting.

my friend texted me and said that "your mom is looking for you"...

you know what? it hurt

my mom is the only person who looks for me when i'm not at home or when it's already late...

she always texts me for me to come home...

but now somebody else texted me her message... the one she texts me all the time..

"its time for you to come home"

she was again looking for me....

i will truly miss this...

Never Seeing Her Again

i never thought i would have to face this situation....

a lot of things had already happened in my life that i never really imagined would happen..

i already faced loosing my first love, i gave birth and i'm raising my daughter alone, i was used by a guy who pretended to be somebody who he was not, i transferred to a new school and met new friends who just wanted to hang out with me because i was the one who spends for them, i had another boyfriend who can never stand up for me because he was ashamed that i was his girl... only found out later that he just wanted to be with me for something else...i had another guy who loved me but because of every heartache that happened i never truly accepted his love and lost him as well, had a trusted friend betray me, had a trusted friend stole from me, somebody broke in to our house and killed our helper only to find out later that they wanted to kill me and my family...

come on! there's more! so much more!... i faced all of it!!!

but now.... i think i've reached my breaking point....

my mom has cancer. stage IV breast cancer metastasis to the lungs...

i really cant imagine loosing my mom... i love her so much... she took care of me for such a long time and she is the one person i can run to when i needed someone to just be there..

i stayed at home to take care of her... her nurse went home for the day...

it hurt... it truly hurt....

seeing her deterioration for the last couple of months hurt....

its truly hard and she said that she feels that she is going away very soon.

she said that she will be there for me... that she will always be there....

that i will just pray and she will come and hug me...although i won't feel her...

that she will never leave me...

but she's gonna leave me soon

i can't face it

its killing me knowing that i will never get to see her again..

Sebay Surf Central. Surf Resort at the Surfing Capital of the North. Philippines

Sebay Surf Central 

View from the beach of Sebay Surf Central's Restaurant Fa'ts Bar and Grille

Enjoy the Sunset while dining at Fat's Bar and Grille

There are a lot of surfing spots in the Philippines and one of those places is San Juan La Union.

San Juan La Union is the surfing capital of the North. It is said to be one of the best places to surf for those who are beginners of the sport.

Picking the right place to stay while enjoying the sand and the beach is difficult especially if your new in the area. So I'll suggest the best place to stay in while having fun :)

Sebay Surf Central is one of many resorts located at the shoreline of Urbiztondo San Juan La Union. It is owned by Atty. Rodolfo V. Yabes and Mrs. Godofreda Yabes.

The resort has 24 rooms with 3 buildings named after each of  the couples children namely Rhoda, Regina and Raissa. The oldest building is named after the eldest daughter of the owners "Rhoda". It's style is truly native.The second building is named after "Regina" the second daughter. The rooms are a mix of both modern and native design. Lastly the newest addition to the rooms is those located at the "Raissa" building which is named after the youngest daughter of the owners. The style is modern and hip. The rooms are spacious and are good for groups especially family's or barkadas.

You would enjoy the beach while dining or by just hanging out at their beach side restaurant named Fat's Bar and Grille. Taste their delicious native foods and enjoy!

Surf the waves of San Juan! You can rent boards and do your thing! You can get an hour surfing lesson from surfers who have years of experience that can teach you the things you need to learn.

Contact Info:
Website: www.sebaysurfcentral.com
Email: sebayresort@yahoo.com / reservations@sebaysurfcentral.com
Telefax: 072 8884075
Cellphone: 09107395698/09176401118

Sunset Bay Beach Resort... HIdden Oasis in the Province

a hidden oasis situated in the Northern part of the Philippines at the province of La Union.

Sunset Bay Beach Resort is located at Brgy. Canaoay San Fernando City La Union. it is a haven for people who "just want to relax and get away from it all".. that's their tag line... 

my friends and i always make it a point to just hang out and enjoy each others companys... the resort is far from the city proper and if you use a private car and you dont know the area, you might get lost.. but its fun looking for it hehe it's all worth it...

when you get to the resort its like a luscious garden with an infinity pool fronting the beach... its truly a place where you can be alone and relax

the resort has 20 rooms and their price range is within the budget. its range is from P1350 to P3190 depending on the month you will come to stay...

the food is also great... im after their portion of the food! its american size and the taste is truly amazing! 

my personal fave is their pizzas... thin crust... also their chicken parmigiana...

come see this place and experience their great service, great food and awesome ambiance..

truly worth your money!

He is always here with us

"where is God?'

"is he listening?":

"is he real?"

questions that i asked repeatedly before. all of which was answered last year on October 25,2010.

it was Election Day. No work. Just a typical day that you prefer to stay at home after voting. Everything was the usual. 

But on that day we went out for dinner to treat my cousin. The dinner was supposed to be the previous day but it was postponed for some unknown reason. Usually my mom prefers to stay at home instead of go out for this kind of things or we leave my daughter at home because its a night out for adults. But another thing happened, my mom came with us and on that night we "ALMOST" left my daughter but we didn't.

After the dinner we went home to find a lot of people at the front of the gate of our house. They were looking inside shouting for someone to open the gate. they were holding rocks tapping the gates. 

when my "manong" opened the gate it was then they found our household helps "marian's" body lying on the floor in front of our car. she was only 17 years old. stabbed 33 times by an unknown person (who was already identified later on but is still at large).

the media and crowd gathered both inside and outside of our house. a lot of people were there out of curiosity and to help as well. they heard marian's screams for help. that was why they rushed to her aid but it was still too late.  

the fear we felt...it consumed us. 

tears automatically fell from my eyes. i kept looking at the crowd and i felt like one of them will kill me and my family. that fear! it was so strong that it felt like it was tangible enough for me to touch... 

my family was saved but unfortunately someone else still died.

it will be a year now on October. justice for marian's death is truly my family's goal.... the killer is still at large.... it could have been one of us that was in her place... marian deserves to rest in peace and to achieve that, justice and prayers are needed.

i still feel that fear until now. you cant help but look back your shoulder. the trauma it caused will haunt me but because of God and my faith in him i will be able to bear it and eventually overcome it. my family is undergoing this process... overcoming the fear and trauma.

God was there. i know it. the sequence of events wouldn't have been that if he wasn't there. he saved us.

The answer to all my question was answered. God is everywhere. He is with us in times that you least expect it. In times that you didn't know that  you needed him. 

This is what happened to me and my family. I learned that it is FAITH in God that truly makes a person capable of handling everything in their life. He is the one that made my family united and able to cope with such a trauma.

I didn't have faith in him before but after everything that has happened and is still happening now in my life I know that he is with me, guiding me... leading me to the right path... that's why i can say that God saved us. 

He is always here with us.

A pet that you can't forget

SHI TZU named STITCHIE

STITCHIE posing for the camera

posing with his mom

we bought a cute little pup at Tiendesita's when we went to Manila last year...

my daughter out of the blue just called him "STITCHIE".... we assumed that it was from the cartoon "Lilo and Stitch" but my daughter said "No, i thought of his name on my own!"... oh well hehe

i remember when i was a kid my father came from manila and he said he had a gift for me... i opened a box full of holes on it (mind you this was about 15 years ago... no "cute" cages yet...)

when i opened the box, a cute white fur ball came out running!!!

when i ran after it and eventually caught it, it was then i realized that my father bought me my very first pet! i was holding a cute girl japanese spitz puppy ...

i thought she was already BIG during that time hehe  ( i was 6 years old then! everything looked big! hehe)

i named her "TWEETY"...  not because of the character Tweety Bird but i named her from Tweetie De Leon when there was still the sitcom "okay ka, fairy ko" of GMA... it was popular then.

remembering her... my first bestfriend is bittersweet...

she was run over by our car while she was sleeping at the garage...

i still can't forget her. my very first pet. that special moment of getting to meet her is truly worth remembering... it brings back memories of my childhood.

now my daughter has her own best friend... a dog that is as both naughty and as sweet as her... she will treasure the memories that she will be able to spend with her and remember everything about him when she gets to my age or even older..

having a pet as a kid is awesome... its like having your own live stuff toy which can interact with you. its something every kid should experience. whether its a dog, a bird, a cat, a chick? hehe its truly amazing having a pet when you are a child... and im sure of it... you'll have a pet that you can't forget.